What is holding me back? I have been planning to write a children's book for years now and for whatever reason, it's just not happening. I'm not even really attempting to get started. What's my problem?
I think I'm cutting myself short anytime I think about this goal. I'm really good at psyching myself out of being a writer: "I don't have any ideas." "I'm not good enough." "I don't have any connections to agents or publishers." "I'll never get published." "I don't have time." "I don't have any creative energy left after I give the kids what they need." Wah. Wah. Wah. Blah. Blah. Blah.
It's so much easier not to try. To let my wheels slow down and sink into the mud, the negative thoughts pelting down, lashing at my confidence, soaking me in a storm of my own thunderous making. I am my own worst enemy.
Now I need to get really good a psyching myself into giving this a shot. I will have the time this summer, the energy, and the inspiration. Both kids will go to children's programs every morning of every weekday, all summer long. I will be writing from a place that gives me peace, surrounded by mountains and overlooking a glinting, silver blue lake. I will NOT have any excuses not to write. I feel tingly just thinking about my own possibilities. The ideas are swirling in my head. Now I need to draw my confidence about me like an overcoat against the storm's barrage and begin my mantra: "I think I can. I think I can. I think I can...."