We'll be celebrating Mother's Day on Sunday.
I have mixed feelings about this day. It's nice because I am a mother and so I get a special day to celebrate it with my family. It's a little hard because my mother passed away when I was 19 and my stepmom lives far away. My mother-in-law lives closer so we usually see her sometime on that day.
Because my mom died a while ago, I protect myself by not thinking about her too much. I have gotten really, really good at just not thinking about painful thoughts. Is that healthy? I don't know. It works for me. Father's day is about the same too. My dad died four years ago. We celebrate with my father-in-law on that day. The problem with these holidays is that they dredge-up all these feelings that are "in-check" the rest of the year (except other major holidays and birthdays).
I'm gonna use this as my little psycho-therapy session, OK?
How do you guys feel about these holidays? Are they peaches and cream for you? Are they full of thorns? A little of both?
I really don't have any great insight this week. I just wanted to vent.
On Sunday, we'll celebrate with a nice breakfast out and cards for me to read. I'll spend the day saying "It's my choice (to do whatever) because it's MY special day!". Then, I'll probably have a little cry session sometime towards the end of the night and my hubby will again comfort me as he always tries to do. Then, I'll wake up on Monday morning and be kind of relieved the day has passed, yet happy that I have a little family that loves and cares about me.
With that, I hope all you moms out there have a wonderful Mother's Day. Whatever your issues, I wish you all the best!
Happy Mother's Day!